The Blonde Life. {Lessons learned, or not…}

So what’d y’all think of J and N last week?? Her brother(s) are kind of pains in the ass, huh? {They’re lucky she loves them…}

Where were we? The hog roast, catching up, beer…

It was one of those nights that, simply put, was just really nice, story book-esque, memory worthy – but J’s heart wasn’t in it, even still…

They had stayed up and talked for hours after everyone had left or passed out. Talked about past relationships, caught up on the time they had been apart, cuddled a bit, kissed. And truth be told – cause well, I’m telling it now – J’s head wasn’t with N that night. Remember that toxic relationship she had been in prior to this?? Well, he still lingered, the hurt was still very fresh, her trust in men and herself hadn’t healed, J was tainted. And she hadn’t realized just how much, until those moments of hanging out with N.

It sucks when you don’t realize how broken you are until you’re trying to move onto someone new…

However, N was moving out of state at the end of the month so they knew nothing could really come of them, which settled well with both of them. J and N continued  to stay in contact for the next year and actually allowed their friendship to grow without focusing on a relationship. They became close, N was a good guy. He was easy to be around and her friends liked him.

I’d love to tell you that there are so many more twists and turns to this story… that J and N finally got their shot, that they had this great relationship, that things were  worth all the effort…

BUT, that isn’t how the story ends, unfortunately. It kind of ends abruptly, full of lies and wasted time. Needless to say, J and N are no longer apart of each other’s lives. And I can’t really tell you what the demise was – aside from bad timing and immaturity.  You have that sometimes – hopefully you learn from it or take away some good memories. But sometimes you won’t….

I’ve J has dealt with that – and had far more of those times than the latter. But they make us who we are, right?!

You win some – you lose some. That’s just the way the cookie crumbles, and I’m okay with that. 🙂

Tune in next week… I’m sure I can find something good up my sleeve.

Happy Friday, y’all.

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